Normally I would have given birth at home, in the place where I am sitting now.

But due to an unexpected turn we had to go straight to the hospital.

I had been abused in the past. That trauma had completely manifested in my body.

The unfamiliar doctors had been informed about my past, but did not take it into account.

This led to a complete tearing of my vulva and extra trauma on my body.

Touch was still difficult. Also during breastfeeding.

I felt like I was failing as a mother.

But I have a beautiful daughter together with my partner.

We are a good team.

I am really very proud of myself.